Her Lifeless Eyes

Everything suddenly went blank before my eyes.
All I could see was the blood.
The walls stained of her blood,
Of her blood, my mother's.
I looked at the mirror,
Where I usually see a beautiful lady
A beautiful lady with blue magnificent eyes.
But now I see a monster,
A monster with bloodshot eyes.
'You were subconscious', I tried to convince myself
But does that really justify my act,
My act of killing my own mother,
embracing the venomous arms of drugs.
She always loved me for who I am,
But will she love me for this monster I have become.
I lay down next to her for one last time,
Like we did the first time
My eyes stared at her eyes which were a magic,
Only they were lifeless this time.