i shut my eyes
and await the tears
that will but stain my cheeks
just like he stains my dignity
every time he puts his hand on me.
i feel the pain surface
not from the blows to my face
but from the state of helplessness
that i’ve been dragged into
by the man whose name i bear.
i open my eyes
and see my tormentor descending
into the dark as i lie numb
and silently beg for forgiveness
for everything i did that led me here.